| Hey all,
I figured I'd let everyone know that Gackt is, in fact, male, despite his feminine appearence. Believe me when I say that he is all man. ^.~ Anyways, a whole lot of shit is happening today. Ugh. Sometimes I really hate being me, but I can't change that. Or can I? Who knows anymore. God, sometimes I wish I could just disappear, it would make things so much easier and less complicated. Oh well, as I've been told so many times, and have started saying myself, "Life's a BITCH and then you DIE." I just wish the latter would happen a hell of a lot sooner then later, considering I feel like I'm gonna be alone all my life anyway. What's the point in living a life if you don't have anyone to share it with? And I know I'm probably gonna get yelled at for this entry, but I don't care. People are gonna say that I'm not alone and that I have friends, but that's not the kind of alone I'm talking about. As far as I'm concerned, there is most likely no 'special someone' out there for me and most likely never will be. Or if there is, he's gonna be taken when I finally find him. Oh well, Shannon is condemned to be alone all her life. It's hard to accept, but I'm getting there. It's expecially hard when everyone around me seems to have someone who cares so deeply for them and I have no one. It's so incredably depressing that it causes physical pain. My chest aches at the thought of being alone like that, but I'm sure I'll become numb to the pain eventually. But until then, I will cope with it as best I can by putting on that happy mask and trying to be normal, even though I'm being torn apart inside. Haha, God, I need serious help. Hahaha, now that's a shocker.
Forever Love,
Shannon |
